Until recently, I was quite bothered by the practice of becoming a
doctor just for the money. I still believe that it is a privilege to
have that role, and it should be done well or not at all. However, a
person can do the job OK just for the money. Also, it is good for
people to fill needs in the market, and the cost & pay for physician
jobs needs to be able to affect the supply and demand for those jobs in
order to correct prices, supply, and demand towards what is good and
fair.

I still believe that in order to be a truly great doctor, a person must
be working based on love, and work to heal the whole person that is a
patient. If somebody works just for money, or does not believe in the
human soul, they will never be a great healer.


I am getting rather tired of my job. Things have slowed down again.
Good thing it's time to move on soon.
I plan to end work around the week of the 4th, so I have a couple weeks
off.
I plan to travel and visit people during that time -
My list currently includes Kalamazoo, Cincinnati, Columbus, and maybe
Chicago and New York.
Anybody want to go to New York with me for several days? I'll have to
call some dudes up.

Have any of you ever experienced a really deep silence?

I have on a few occasions, and each time, a sort of rushing sound developed in my head.

I'm not sure if it was noise made by my blood flowing or by gentle air currents, which is normally overwhelmed by other noises. Perhaps it didn't even have a external source - a default signal from my ears or nerves.

I wonder if other people "hear" silence the same way.

Attended my university's commencement today.

It was a good experience. Nice to spend time with my parents.

It would have been much better if I had more time to chat with the people I know and like who graduated with me.
I guess I can call them up or send a Facebook message or email if I really want to get in one last contact.

We all came home and it was yardwork time. There was some bitterness and dissent. We had a family meeting, which was awkward but beneficial to have, I think.

I am planning to have a party to celebrate my passage into another phase of life - preferably after I know my future medical school.
The only question is, do I invite relatives as well as friends? It would be nice to have them celebrate with me, but that would totally change the party dynamic. There are so many relatives.

I will be looking for assistance in the near future, to help me find a new, bitchin' laptop for medical school.

Role-played recently. An old activity for me, not experienced much lately.
I found it difficult at times to figure out what my character would do and especially what he would say. It's hard to do off the cuff.
It's going well, though. I like the two possible ways he'll end up going in the story. He's doing well posturing, too.

Been playing Warcraft 3, preparing to play on Battlenet. For some reason I am quite excited and maybe even a bit afraid(!?) to play with other people. I have definitely been too concerned with preparing to face real opponents, by practicing against computer ones.

Mainly still trying to figure out where to devote my time: various friends, girlfriend, video games, books, fencing, and so on. So much to do, so little time.
And when I go to medical school, I'll have to be even more selective.

Ah well.
Life is good!

WHY IS IT SO FREAKING HARD TO CHANGE?

Same old things I want to improve on.


I could have gone to Cedar Point on Saturday, or gone golfing with my dad.
I decided that I'd rather just sleep in and play video games.
This is unrelated to my above comment... I think.


Getting more new thoughts on my discernment, but the lack of prayer, reflection, and meditation is holding back the development and internalization of them.


It looks like a lot of my co-workers are liberal Democrats. This surprises me a bit, since middle-aged, working engineers with a family are generally conservative - or so I thought.
Perhaps they are more conservative when it comes to social policies, and I've only heard their economic and foreign policy thoughts (war on Iraq, socialized healthcare).

I'm pretty in-line with the standard conservative platform. The only exception I can think of is that I am against the death penalty.
Personally, my vote is not swayed much by economic and foreign policy issues, though. I give priority to social and moral issues, because they directly effect the human soul, which is more important and lasting than prosperity and "progress."

Saw a lot of old friends and brothers at my fraternity's 100th Anniversary.

Good time. Went too quickly to really reconnect with anybody, I felt.

It was also the fanciest event where I wasn't being taken by my parents.
Interesting experience, in that sense.

Kristy & I went to mass at Cleveland's cathedral on Sunday. The music was amazing - it brought tears to my eyes. I really like the old church choral kind of music.


Still exercising a lot - would like to make more of it fencing based.
Still want to pray more.


Met an evangelical "born again" Christian during my work at a Ford plant. We did not agree about some things, but since he didn't really ask me much about what I thought, and I did not interrupt, we didn't argue much at all.
It's nice to meet people who passionately follow my Lord.


Currently listening to: "Stay or Leave" by Dave Matthews

WOW!!!!

300 was so amazing!

I just want to go stab some dudes with a big 'ol spear!

Get super pissed and yell stuff!

Die in battle!



RRRRAAARGH!


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gNqiSkd1M6k

So tired.

I love a deep blue sky... maybe with a little moon in it.


So very tired.

Shall I toil and not seek for rest?