Great weekend. Saw Kristy for almost two whole days. She ran her school's rennaisance fair, which went very well.

I also interviewed at Wayne State. The interview went OK. The school seemed OK relative to OSU & Loyola.


Lately, I have been experiencing a LOT of inner turmoil about my discernment. I find myself thinking quite often about possible futures as a priest or raising a family. There's so many things about each that attract or repel me. Oftentimes I feel confused about it, and sometimes it aggravates me.
I spoke with my mom about this while she drove me home, and we concluded that I am experiencing this due to my lapse in active discernment and spiritual nourishment. I haven't been praying and meditating as much as I did over the summer. I haven't been really discerning as much. I haven't been meeting with a spiritual director.
Unfortunately, I am very busy this semester, and I don't think I'll really have the time to focus on discernment until after I graduate. Since I really hope to know my vocation in time to accept or turn down medical school offers, it would be great to have it figured out by next April. I hope to buckle down and do some serious discernment after graduation.
Until then, I should really do more than I am now, though. This painful conflict in my heart may be God's way of encouraging me to continue pursuing my purpose.